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“Selling Out”
July 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment
It has been a month since I have committed myself to write my thoughts down. I just got over a job that I think I took on impulse due to financial fears. It only made me realize what I want from my life at this point in time, torn between love and money the Business to Business job was an experience that I am thankful for, but happy to have behind me. The job hunt continues as the Something Remote web series is in full swing and I have tried to commit myself to simply throwing myself at the work that needs to get done, rather then try to strategize and plan every single step. Some things need to be approached with a one track mind, then refined once the hulking mass is shaped a bit.
Moving forward with the webseries has conjured up some new faces and new experiences and it is exciting to unfold, though sometimes the demanding timelines we put down for ourselves could look like a flaw. I think we spend a lot of time wondering if we’re rushing into things rather than simply executing and planning it out beforehand. I know life has a tendency to ask a lot out of us, from bills to food, there seems to be less and less time in the day. I want to channel a lot of what I am doing at this point in life into our work, present or future. I think the sales job has set forth a foundation and experience needed for my next big script I feel I have in me, currently titled Disconnect. Yet the need to “sell out” seems to be in the air, the need to be recognized and utilized by a larger power to gain some sort of justification is a heated issue, and even I am torn between artist and businessman. I still feel a flux between joblessness and art creation, as the ever-growing need for survival becomes more apparent with every passing day. The idea that we could take all this free time to make “art” is a great notion and attitude, yet without the sustenance of a paying job to feed the passion, it really becomes a disheartening crossroad.